I insist. I absolutely insist, and this is why –
A few years ago I was stood at a bus stop outside Debenhams, waiting for a bus that seemed reluctant to come. Faintly irritated and very bored, just for something to do I turned the other way; and found I was standing in front of a cupcake three times my size. Moist and sweet, it was designed to entice me into their cafe. I looked around and realised they were everywhere – the adverts designed to lure me into eating far more than I needed to. It was 8 o’clock in the morning and already I was under bombardment, and it would carry on all day until the moment I closed my eyes to go to sleep that night.
We live in a world where an incomprehensible amout of money is spent on persuading us to over-indulge – but that when we do, and get fat, sneers at and humiliates us as spineless pigs. No wonder we and our bodies are confused as hell and no longer have any idea what to do for the best.
Add to that we are no longer so young, have passed through menopause (see my post Menopause and how it relates to weight for more on that) and our bodies will react ever more hungrily to what we take in, we really are between a jagged rock and a very hard place.
So be compassionate to yourself about all this. You can come through, you can win (because it is, in its way, a war: but not You -v- Your Body, rather You & Your Body -v- The Rest of the World) and you and your body can play nice again. However, you’re going to have to start trusting in and loving yourself and your body again in order to do it.
And just to help you along, and get you past the idea that you are heavier now because you’re lazy and greedy where other people are strong and disciplined, I’m posting some photos to illustrate my point.
I hesitate ever to fat shame anybody, and if it were a member of the public who had never chosen to draw attention to themselves, I wouldn’t dream of it. However, this is a supermodel who made a fortune in the 1980s and 90s flaunting herself in front of cameras; and as a byproduct of collaborating in the illusion of Perfection, making us all feel like something that wouldn’t even have the right to stick to the bottom of her shoe.
So here is Linda Evangelista, firstly with Naomi Campbell back in the day; and then more recently –
So you see, it can happen to the best of us. Take heart.